this is a song about a conversation i had with my sister when i was 15
lyrics
I don't wanna just survive
I wanna feel a goddamn purpose
That you told me just has to exist
It's what makes all of this worth it
But I quit believing in fairy tales when I finally heard the songs
And now these days are just too short and nights too long
I'm asleep on the fucking highway
Cars rip my insides to pieces
Tractor trailer tires dry my tears and send me off to Jesus
I wanna see my dead grandfather and my dead grandmother too
And I could maybe even play them a song or two
But my father listens to metal
And my mother loves the smiths
I'm just a snot nose fucking teenager
A desperate little shit
So could I bum a cigarette and maybe a fuckin car ride home
I don't mean to bother you, I just can't be alone
So sister sister wake me up,
I told you months ago
How I've always felt so fucking dead
It's time I made it so
You told me I can't do that to you or chance or Charlotte now that she's here
So it's for you I cling to life despite the fear
Cuz the fear is all I know
The fear is all I live
The fears what wakes me up at night
Desperate, head shot to shit
But I can fake it for those I love and goddamnit do I know why
Survivals simply someone's not wanting you to fucking die
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